Dropping through__ How Big do you think I am?
No Matter, No one Knows me.
Sensational… this is the plan__I don’T have one.
I was thinking, maybe, you would like to know me. I love to be on this side of the full motion golden diadem.
Crackers are not a fruit I’d like to eat.
So, what we have here is a total breakdown or breakthrough.
I’d love to know, Why?
We put ourselves on display. I want to love the world with the love of all of the ways…
In only the ways that are authorized. By you.
I am merely a silly little output magazine of revolving unsorted counter claims.
On this moment’s notice__ I could just say, ‘Put it away!’
Major breakthrough. I want to have the opening. From within…
The come about___ that always___ has me synchronized with my true feelings.
I have the time now….before I go to bed to say something_
From the very bottom of my heart___I wish the world all of my best intentions. My Heart.
I Am here __not messing around, but this is the only way I have right now.
I give something now, because I want to begin the real life that exists in the real part of my life. Me.
I want to_ not fake my way through the best part of my life.
What’s left after you finally realize__ I wasted most of my existence on self-doubt. No doubt!
I gave away the possibility of meeting the best of you__
When I didn’t live the best of me. See.
Down deep and not too far away I know where I hang out___There I am.
I am going to be as happy and as helpful as I choose to be.
Open your heart. Feel the gathering love of being on the line with the fine colors of the life within.
How can I claim to be going anywhere?
I just can___even as I know this doesn’t have all, or maybe, even a part of just exactly, what I would like this to be___,
But I am claiming a certain extirpated dialogical freedom to say as I am believing this. I hear you,now.
It holds me to the letter I am writing one note at a time.
I am feeling an internal_ eternal music that lies within.
It is not making claims about certitude,
But I am fulfilling the doctrine of being born to live the life I claim.
I want to love the man I am, so I can be certain to reflect to you_ who are here…. the solid and resounding reflection of your own claim to what your heart desires. Peace,Love _Hope.
The logic…anticipation. I desire the way that would have me knowing my life is breathing the whole of my parts to the future that exists as the plan.
Free my way to be real____And holding the whole world to my
breast, I ache to breakthrough. I want to represent the truth of who I am.
”You can’t climb, until you’re ready to fall”
Where does it end__
For tonight, the life of being
is the breathing and the feeling of being.
This close__ Seeing,
not a plain wrapper existence wrapped in
The ephemeral art of believing, what I can bring to the stage.
What that means… is up to me.
I have earned at this late date_ a certain dependence on
the late appeal of who I used to be.
Because it was easy__ I could continue to live un-resolved and seal my fate__To never get it right,
Revolving and resorting, over and over again.
I am instead challenging my music
to be more than the rest of those
notes I don’t want to hear.
Negative energy__just always got in my way.
I embraced the decline. Inertia and guilt.
Fear of pushing the envelope.
So if this could be. The…
Dropping through. the…
Constructing in my mind,
A fortress of Love.
A haven of Hope.
A home for Desire.
A physical construct of Quality.
An eminence front__
Sounds like an ignoble deed,
But, strength and grace are required to survive.
One must carry their burden___ gracefully.
I am, merely an actor on the stage of life,
and in this small venue,
I am exposing my waxen wings
to the heat of the day.
Hoping, I survive to take flight
on the ‘morrow.
See You then,
Hope I do not offend your Ear.
I am Rust_